The semester is coming to a close, and the dates for the trip draw closer. The plans have changed a lot over the course of a few months, but the dates for the trip are finally set.
We will be there from July 4 through July 17. Our itinerary is starting to take shape, but hasn’t been finalized yet, other than the camp, which will take place the week of July 9 — July 16.
In all honesty it has been a difficult semester balancing school, work, family, friendships, and ministry. But in all of the chaos, I am reminded of Romans 8:28:
“And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.”
Despite many setbacks and obstacles, I trust that God has a purpose in me pursuing this ministry. Even should some dramatic life circumstance prevent me from going, and all my efforts would seem to have gone to waste, I know there is a bigger purpose that I might not understand or even see the fruit of in this lifetime. If anything, it has made me more dependent on Christ, and if that is the only thing accomplished through this experience then may God be all the more glorified for it.
In the midst of these obstacles, I was forced to confront the fact that perhaps this was my Isaac. I had known the moment I left Poland that I would be coming back, but I had to evaluate whether my determination to go — a desire I believe God has given me to serve there again — was more important than continuing in obedience should God instruct me to wait. I knew I was going back, but I did not know when. I wanted to badly to impose my own timing and terms on something that only God had any right to control.
At a point when the details of the trip were uncertain, I was confronted with the degree to which I wanted God’s desires to conform to my own, rather than the other way around. It has been extremely humbling to be so dependent on others for financial support and for the willingness of individuals to be part of our team, and ultimately for God to open those doors necessary to make this trip possible.
God continued to show me grace in orchestrating every detail of the trip beautifully in his own timing when all I wanted to do was meddle and impose my own will on the situation. I am slowly learning to sit back and enjoy the ride.
“Do not boast about tomorrow, for you do not know what a day may bring” (Proverbs 27:1).
What has proven enormously difficult for me to handle on my own is a piece of cake for God — bułka z masłem! May he gain all the glory through my weakness (2 Cor 12:9).